Appreciation

It always makes me wonder how people want things they can't have.

But when it's there, we don't seem to care anymore.
When it is ours, we disregard it.

Yes, it is good to be comfortable, but when you get too comfortable, the small things doesn't seem to matter anymore. But when apart, when you cannot have it next to you, only then we say how much we miss it.

Just a constant cycle.

You desire for something new, work hard to get it. When you have it, it becomes less precious to you.

You desire for a person, you try hard to get the person. When the person is yours, you just don't try as hard anymore.

Why?

I can never understand.
I still don't.

Young and Beautiful

Its surprising to see that what you do still affects me somehow.

I could never understand why this part of my past is so difficult to let go. I've moved on. 

I know I have.

I'm sure.

I think. 

I don't know. 

Because of my past, I tend to always block out things I don't want to remember.  My brain spontaneously stops remembering things that bring my pain. It has been tune to function that way, I believe a way to protect me from so many things. I'm not ignorant, just numb? 

In the beginning, I couldn't understand why it was so easy for me to let go of people so important to me. Maybe because it was easy for people that were important to me to let go of me. Just maybe, who knows what the real reason to these things are.

Another emotional post? No. 

A reminder, yes.